Rye,
Letting go of the guilt is something that seems to gradually become easier as I put the pieces of what remains together. Sometimes just knowing that there are others that feel this way is somewhat of a relief, and certainly an insipiration. Inspiration in knowing that there is a light at the end of this dark tunnel and that I am not alone.
I too am creating a new me, however hard is seems on some days. I will never give up. If nothing else, the single most powerful motivation is my children. And for them I will do anything, and achieve the impossible.
Thank you for your positive and inspiring words. I wish you all the best on your recovery.